Lollipops and
lagoons
Kids and
secretive hide-a-way spots of love
To which do I
turn?
To which do I
have the capacity to respond?
My Lord, the
extremes, the opposites still present themselves
Yes?
Yes...and thank
you!
Jaime just
finished–very content with his $10 tip
While here at
the Italian Eatery eating in Palo Alto,
Home of
Stanford University–this has been pleasant
20 years
ago...would I have been here in Med School?
Law School??
Driving around
campus, walking along University Avenue has been nostalgic
Remembering
back to times I could have had, chosen otherwise to experience
The tug was
still very real
Land of
Hispanics, of Asians...Orientals...land of my heart
But, Land of my
destiny?
Something
somewhere else, is calling me
TO whom?
TO where?
The years have
eluded me...the mystery yet to be unveiled...I await
The moment of
opening, of rejoicing, of meeting
Companion,
Community...are you out there?
Of course you
are...I wait, rest, trust
In quiet and in
repentance
God, my God,
Master of the Universe
Peace.
Parting
greetings from San Jose this morning
Such a powerful
2 weeks
So many lives
touched.
Sweet for me to
be chatting with David, from Kenya.
His opportunity
to share with me, to encourage me.
He was so
thrilled with my food these days
It was good for
him to thank me through inspiration.
Doing so many
potentially unpleasant things as unto God
Thereby,
Bringing joy to
the soul
Finding then,
opportunity to serve and radiate, and to transmit.
Encouraging also
of the “life to date” as a single man...that called by God
Ministry possible
as a single man more effective than as
a married man who
Has other
concerns and responsibilities...nice confirmation
All of the while,
Cristy sitting a few tables away. Such
a sweet spirit and so pretty
So good that I am
leaving...amen?
God, so
attractive even the unknowing??
Jacket slipped
down her shoulder with the tank top underneath
Life and the
imagination–life and its challenges.
The
“available” always seem to young...Lord,
Your time is
perfect...on the road again.
Lollipops or
lagoons
Still a kid with
sufficient wisdom so as not to end a sucker!
My Lord, for the
travels, for the opportunities, for the love,
Thank you!
Damn, I was just
reminded
You are nobody
until someone loves you!
...until someone loves me
Reality–until I
allow myself to be loved
Do I allow God to
love me
Difficult to
discern
Perhaps I simply
imagine I open to him
No one...until
someone loves you
Many have tried
to love me
I’ve not let
any one in, no one,
So, we do have a
door to open,
Something to tear
down
Someone to meet
The reflection of
me still must burn
Face to face
needs must deepen
Acceptance of
myself, allows one to love me!
God? Another?
In the meantime,
I am still alone,
orphaned, fearful
Lillipops...did I
ever allow one to love me.
I do not think so
I’ve frustrated
so many all my life
Mom, dad,
sisters, friends, you...God
42, maybe soon
I’ll lay down the lollipops and
Find my way into
the lagoon,
The secretive
place of Love.
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